|
Biography
“All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts…”
-Shakespeare; "As
You Like It"
Looking back to my younger years, grade school mostly, I
had wanted to be an actress. I was great at acting and
loved performing for people. No butterflies for me. I
was a natural and so I was told. Whether it was a piano
recital, a school musical or band performance, I
participated with great passion, giving it my all. |
 |
|
My life quickly became my stage, I performed for
everyone. Whatever you wanted me to be for you, I was
it. I hid behind my character not realizing that I was
the playwright, the director and the producer of this
performance I now call “Living to Please Others.” I lost
sight of who I really was, what my true passions were. I
felt as though I needed to please everyone and be
everything they thought I should be. I had written these
parts and was so good in acting, a natural, that I
totally forgot that I could actually choose something
different, write a different play, a play that would be
called, “Living Life Fully.”
The curtains fell for the last time on “Living to Please
Others” on December 16, 2003, when I was diagnosed with
stage III rectal cancer. At the time of diagnosis, I was
33 years old, married and had a beautiful two-year-old
son and a great career. My audience was shocked with my
prognosis. How could someone that appeared so healthy be
so ill without any real symptoms? My friends, it’s
called acting. The character I played so well was quite
different than the real person behind the character. As
a person, I was a total mess. I didn’t allow anyone to
see my anger, my resentment and the lack of self-love I
had for myself. The feelings of inadequacy filled my
Being and I stored them deep, deep down inside, not
allowing them
to pass.
It was quite appropriate that I would place this hurt,
this self-loathing, right in my rectum, the major muscle
responsible for holding on and letting go! It was no
coincidence that I had rectal cancer; it was a godsend.
I needed to let go and to let go of a lot of things.
Holding onto every little hurt that had been “done to
me” was killing me. I had to come to the realization
that nothing had been done to me, I had done it all to
myself. I had written the play and now was the time to
close down “Living to Please Others,” and write a new
play, a play where I put myself first; a new play where
I lived for myself, giving to myself fully and taking
responsibility for my happiness.
Rectal cancer was my wake-up call and my opportunity for
spiritual growth. It was time for me to make peace with
who I really am – the good, the bad and the ugly – and
embrace it all. I needed to stop judging myself and
start loving myself. The time had come to start taking
care of me and only I could do that.
Today, five years after my cancer journey, “Living Life
Fully” is going strong, thrilling audiences everywhere,
but most importantly, bringing much happiness to its
creator - me.
As an empowerment coach and energy healer, I am living
my passion of helping those who would like to write a
different play - a play full of peace, love, joy and
happiness. I share the insights that I have learned
through my life to guide people on their path – whether
through relationships, career, life transitions, etc.
Life is good, it’s your choice what you make of it.
|
